julihudson

I don't use this anymore...

2008-05-10T20:31:00Z

www.julihudson.com

go there to read my blog.

I don't even remember

2008-02-14T20:13:30Z

posting the last bulletin. But whatever. Today is Valentines Day.

Kill me now.

Tifagny....

2008-02-09T19:24:52Z

and I have the best times.

SRSLY BRAHH!

:)

Too often

2008-01-25T08:31:38Z

the thing you want most is the one thing you can't have. Desire leaves us heartbroken, it wears us out. Desire can wreck your life. But as tough as wanting something can be. The people who suffer the most, are those who don't know what they want.

kdjfkjjkfg

2008-01-10T07:05:18Z

Still... they say you don't kick the habit until you hit rock bottom, but how do you know when you're there? Because no matter how badly a thing is hurting us, sometimes letting go hurts even worse.

Dude.

2008-01-07T07:17:27Z

Today my dog Dallas slapped me in the face. Not Cool, now I have a huge scrape on my face. Ugh.

I am.

2008-01-05T22:13:15Z

So excited for California, like I just want to scream. We're flying 1st class. We're renting a Hummer for the whole trip. We're staying in the LA area for the most part. I don't know really what is considered LA, but we're going to Malibu, Laguna Beach... places like that. But we are going to Las Vegas too I guess?

!!!!!!!!!@#$%^@#$%#!@@#$!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Fresh Starts...

2007-12-31T21:32:00Z

thanks to the calender they happen every year. Just set your watch to January, our reward for surviving the holiday season. Bringing on the great tradition of new years resolutions, put your past behind you and start over. It's hard to resist the chance of a new beginning, a chance to put the problems of last year to bed.

BEST ALBUMS OF 2007

2007-12-28T09:49:16Z

1. Coheed and Cambria - No World For Tomorrow
2. A Day To Remember - For Those Who Have Heart
3. Jimmy Eat World - Chase The Light.
4. Circa Survive - On Letting Go
5. Dillinger Escape Plan - Ire Works

The Truth is Painful

2007-12-27T09:37:55Z

Deep down, nobody wants to hear it, especially when it hits close to home. Sometimes we tell the truth is all we have to give. Sometimes we tell the truth because we need to say it out loud to hear it for ourselves. And sometimes we tell the truth because we just can't help ourselves. Sometimes, we tell them because we owe them at least that much.

UGHH....

2007-12-26T23:28:25Z

Whoever said "What you don't know can't hurt you." is a complete and total moron. Because for most people I know and for myself, not knowing is the worst feeling in the world.

Amber and I cried while listening to Jordin Sparks - Tattoo in the car today.

We are cool.

D:

I am so sick...

2007-12-20T08:15:55Z

I hate subway, I'm debating on eating there ever again. I'll just goto Penn Station for subs now... At Subway I usually get some vegetable crap. But yesterday I got a BLT. They must have not cooked their bacon on it yesterday. BACON is not "EATING FRESH"

IM SO SICK... BLAH...

screw subway. pieces of shit.

ugh.

is there anyway to make myself feel better?
i haven't eaten anything all day.

ahh i can't even sit up to look at my computer.

and Dry Heaving sucks so bad.
I constantly have to puke and nothing comes out, im crying & sweating.

I think I am going to go lay on my bathroom floor.

D:

I am.

2007-12-19T09:04:41Z

I just wrote a blog that was around 6 paragraphs on. I just deleted it all, it was all just ridiculous when I can sum up the entire thing with 8 words.

I am trying to be a better person.

As human beings...

2007-12-18T19:30:18Z

We all try to do the best we can. But the world is full of unexpected twists and turns. Just when you’ve gotten the lay of the land, the ground underneath you shifts. It knocks you off your feet. If you're lucky, you end up with nothing more than a flesh wound, something a band-aid will cover. But some wounds are deeper than they first appear, and require more than just a quick fix. With some wounds, you have to rip of the band-aid, let them breathe and give them time to heal.

cali

2007-12-15T18:19:55Z

I got about 3 hours of sleep last night. This is amazing, but something is missing. And I feel like things are falling apart, not speaking for myself, or am I? Whatever, I know myself, and who I am won't do anything about it, even if I really want to. So I'll just sit here in this house, continue listening to music, not say a word, because I'm too scared to say anything..... like always. Can someone please call me out on these things? I need you to because, I only have my mom doing this, so I just think that "It's ok, it's my mom." but no one else says anything to me. They are too scared that I will get pissed or something, but I know I want.

Also no one knows I'm here. Just the people I am with right now. Oh fuck, I am so emo.

wtf

2007-12-12T02:52:28Z

its 8:00pm. and I have not eaten anything today. I drank a cup full of cranberry juice thats it.

WTF, well hopefully I'll weigh less tomorrow! :)

god I cannot wait until I move to Florida finally... IM MOVING LIKE JANUARY 4th ish.. It's pretty much all I think about. I know its going to be the hardest 6 months I have ever experienced especially working 2 jobs (Disney in the morning, Universal in the afternoon and I know I'll get the job immediately), working about 70 hrs a week, and going to school. But I think it all will be worth it when I move to California. :)

if I did my math right. I'll be working 70 hours a week. and I am not sure how much they pay but I my friend who worked there said 8.00 an hour. SooOOooo... I'll just make it 7.50 for taxes. ..

$70.00 x $7.50 = $525.00 a week.
I'll be working until the beginning of June so thats 20 weeks.

$525.00 x 20 = $10,500.00

and I don't really need to pay for much while I'm living there, no rent or w/e and my $40 sidekick bill. no rent. and I guess I'll have to buy food, and I know all I'm going to have in my house is SPECIAL K w/ STRAWBERRIES cereal, then bread and lunch meat, miracle whip, and heads of lettuce, because I usually eat the same thing everyday anyways besides whatever my dad makes for dinner. plus my roomate will be paying half.

so thats about $100 a month so $100.00 x 5months = $500.00
oh wtf gay.

Oh shit I forgot about gas for my car, damnit. GAS SUCKS!

Well, I guess that driving a car that gets 30 miles per gallon rocks.
ok so I just mapquested, and its like 27 miles away.

so 2 x 30 is a day of driving = 60 miles.

60 miles X 5 days a week. = 300 miles.

300 miles x 20 weeks = 6,000 miles.

ok srsly I'm so confused right now...

uhhh.... so 6,000 / 30mpg? right? = 200

then 200 x $3.00 a gallon = $600.00 for gas

I think I did all of that right? anyways cut that in half since I'll be driving to work everyday and I'll be paying half for gas and I'm going to have the same job as my roomate woo. ;P

so $500.00 + $300.00 = $800.00
but I'll round it to like $1,250.00 for other random things like picking up my friends from the airport.

OMG WTF THATS ALOT. D:

so $10,500 - $1,250.00 = $9,250.00 for cali.

Seems like enough?......

haha WOO CALIFORNIA! ;D

julihudson @ 2007-12-10T18:10:00

2007-12-11T00:26:05Z

umm.... I'm absolutely obsessed with the song "Mother Superior" I sing it 24/7. My friends don't even know the song, and I just sing it constantly... sorry I just had to put that out there... anyways I am for sure moving to Florida in January. Yay. Also... my dad said he would help me pay rent in Cali wherever I stay, and of course paying for school out there. I'm super excited!! Ok with that said.. I really have nothing else to say besides I had a really good weekend. I love my friends so much, they are amazing.

I can't really explain why Saturday was so amazing, but I think that 'Explosions in The Sky' is just so incredible to listen to with your friends.

Friday was fun, it was Michele's birthday, Taylor threw the party at his new house. GOOD TIMES!

Oh yeah, Me & Tiffany are going to take a trip out to Washington to visit Alex, Sam & James. I'd rather goto Cali but ~~;dljflaksdjflkdf!!!!!!~~ ok i meant to say... everytime I try to go, something retarded happens. BLAH!

BLAH/

2007-12-06T03:30:36Z

I have not worked out in forever. I went to the rec today with Ken, and I never realized how weak I was until today. But anyways to get into the rec, since I live in Westland, I would have had to pay $11 to get in for a day pass, but I called Kaitlyn and used her ID so now I am Kaitlyn Rudicel at the rec center. lol I can't wait until one day I go in there and someone who works there knows me.. BOOOOO. oh well.. anyways I plan on from now on regularly working out. Atleast doing something since I have made it a bad habit to be lazy and not work out. Anyways.. yeah.. tomorrow I'm pretty sure I will be home all day.... because I already know I'm going to be really sore tomorrow. bahh oh well. I think I'm going to clean my bathroom since my dad just paid me $30 to do it. ok....

..... ?

i havent written in here in awhile..

2007-12-03T20:14:59Z

ok so things haven't worked out yet with Florida. Mainly because of 2 reasons, my health, and Coheed and Cambria. Coheed because like everytime I am about to leave they announce a show in Michigan.. I can't miss it. The acoustic show on the 17th will be the last Coheed show this year in Michigan, and this will be my 17th time seeing Coheed this year. anyways back to Florida... I SWEAR TO GOD I'll be there before the middle of January. I am getting a job tomorrow, and I am quitting in a month. I hate Michigan weather, I can't stand it. I went to Ypsilanti today and I threw my pop on the ground because it was too cold to hold. The temperature today is 20 degrees and sooooooo freaking windy, um yeah.. not fun. I'm looking at the temperature in Clermont (where I'm moving too) and its 81 degrees today. LJKFHlkjdfbhdkjfvn!!!!!

Oh and today as I was feeding my fish, I noticed the one I just bought like a week ago, is dead. It is seriously the grossest thing ever. I still want to vomit. I just want to sell my fish tank on ebay. I also hate fish now. I just can't take care of the water and buying a filter every 2 weeks is retarded, and I only wanted a Piranha, and I haven't gotten one yet. But yeah, I dont want anything swimming, after I saw the dead fish with its white eyes,... ok I am done talking about it is making me want to gag.

OK I AM DONE WRITING.. SCREW FISH, AND SCREW MICHIGAN WEATHER.
<3

hmmm

2007-11-07T18:28:58Z

dude, i hope my doctor tells me im ok to goto florida on friday. ill be a very happy camper! ;D

anyways....

i have a problem sleeping.. its 1:30pm. and i havent gone to sleep since like the other day. i didnt goto sleep at all last night.

but yeah im going to get dye ran through my bloodstream like at 3pm.. so yeah...

d'flkj;alkfjfdg

soooo...

2007-10-29T21:46:37Z

Ok on Thursday night I was sitting at my computer talking to some of my friends online, and all of a sudden, I had this sharp shooting pain on the left side of my back and i couldn't even sit up, so I immediately went to lay in my bed. then on the left side of my stomach started hurting really bad. I cant really describe how the pain felt other than, a knife stuck in my back hitting a nerve, and the worst cramp you've ever had in your life in your stomach, and it was hard to breathe. so I just laid in my bed and cried hoping that the pain would go away, and I was actually in shock that I was even crying because I seriously never cry over physical pain. so the pain never went away so I called my dad and told him I was going to the hospital. so I went to the hospital and i had a cat scan done, and I had some other tests, and I had a urinary tract infection, a kidney infection in both of my kidneys, and several kidney stones in both of my kidneys... ok so I was in the hospital from thursday night until sunday morning, it freaking sucked! I puked the whole entire first day I was there, and I mean everything I put down my throat, came back up, water, cranberry juice, fruit, absolutely everything. blahhh it sucked. oh well I'm partially better now.

&& i am home.

DREAM WTF

2007-10-19T04:25:37Z

ok now i had a dream where i was like a guest star on the tila tequila show.. and im straight so i kinda tried to act like a lesbian so i knew i couldnt do it sober so i drank... so i sat at this table with tila, and all of the girls and guys and tila would not stop being obsessed with me... and so i left and took a shower because i was feeling gross. then tila comes into the shower.. and im like AHHHHH... then there were cameras everywhere... and my mom came in saying... I KNEW YOU WERE A LESBIAN.. blah blah blah.. im like OMFGGGGGG then i woke up.. lol..

haha so ya.. this was the weirdest dream ive ever had... besides being chased by giant mushrooms lol

talking to or hanging out with..

2007-10-17T18:45:45Z

boring people.... makes me want to cut my wrists. lol..

no but srsly.

im going to go work out.... i need to lose weight.. i want to weigh like 120 :)

PISSED..

2007-10-15T21:13:00Z

MY SIDEKICK WAS STOLEN AT CEDAR POINT! AND I DONT HAVE MY CELL PHONE BECAUSE ITS IN MY FRIENDS CAR SO YOU CANT CALL OR TEXT ME!! RAWWWWR!

FUCKKKKKKKKKKKK!

WHAT THE HELL....

2007-10-09T18:30:29Z

i actually rememeber my dreams and it seems like they are just like people trying to stop me from doing things.. i signed this paper because i wanted to get updates on university of michigan football games... and some kid actually just made it so he can kill the people who signed up.. i didnt realize it until i was asked if i wanted free tickets and noticed i went to some place in the school just to get killed. i like how many ppl tried to kill me? wtf this kid seriously tried to kill me anyway he could... it was know one i knew, it was just a wigger. like he tried stabbing me with needles.. and then shooting me..beating me up.. and idk but somehow i never died. then i finally killed him torward the end by shooting him... then his girlfriend tried killing me.. and she shot me in the foot. (mind you this all took place at a school) and srsly my old assistant principal who i hated.. MR GERATHY was there. and i was like SHE HAS A GUN CALL THE COPS YOU IDIOT AND SHE JUST SHOT ME IN THE FOOT! and he pulled a gun out of his pocket and shot himself in the head.. and so i ran out around the school to the other side and she kept shooting at me... and then i she ran out of bullets.. then i grabbed the gun and started chasing her ... blah blah we ended up at katie bondars house and her parents watched on the back porch as i shot at this girl... i never killed her though i forgave her...

WHAT THE HELL.... i have a hard time explaining things like this.. because its sooo much in like a short period of time..